She closed her eye when it happened once.
Yet again, it didn't seem so painful.
She ingested one more of those, and like drifting along, it felt like just another step to a long walk.
She kept taking them, till they started slowing her down.
For once, she felt free, from all the guilt, regrets, and incomplete stories.
She was setting off for a new world. where these wouldn't haunt her anymore.
P.S.
I wish I was dreaming.
It feels like lying. One lie follows the other. There's a pattern, it gets worse inside everytime.
But what about the scars of the truth?
Yet again, it didn't seem so painful.
She ingested one more of those, and like drifting along, it felt like just another step to a long walk.
She kept taking them, till they started slowing her down.
For once, she felt free, from all the guilt, regrets, and incomplete stories.
She was setting off for a new world. where these wouldn't haunt her anymore.
I wish I was dreaming.
It feels like lying. One lie follows the other. There's a pattern, it gets worse inside everytime.
But what about the scars of the truth?
Sometimes you simply want to make the pain go away. Except that overcoming pain makes it hurt a lot less the next time. Take it from one who knows.
ReplyDeleteI am not enlightened enough to understand the depth of this beautiful piece. But I love you. :)
ReplyDeleteWhen I read what you wrote I cried, I have been there, doing whatever I could to stop the pain... especially this last year. It gets better but of course I still have those days occasionally... At least they are not one day after the other, there was no time to regenerate and be able to handle the next day. Now I have that, it makes it easier somehow..
ReplyDeleteLife can turn so miserable. Sometimes, it feels easier to do away with it. I understand the feeling.
ReplyDeleteIt takes a lot of strength to let go of the hurt, but in my opinion, it hurts even worse to hold on to it. Sending lots of love.
ReplyDeleteXOXO
It does take too much effort to let go.
ReplyDeleteHope you'll be okay.
Take care.
Beautifully written Purple :)
ReplyDeleteIt's so easy to tell someone that's it's going to be fine and that they'll be alright.
ReplyDeleteBut really, it's easier said than done.
I pray for you, strength and courage.
I could feel myself through this post. Hold on though, it leads to slipping away from sanity otherwise :|
ReplyDeleteWonderful writing :)
Take care!!
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Beautiful writing. Thought provoking.
ReplyDeleteThe truth is terribly overrated, it only hurts people. Letting go of the pain is the only sensible thing to do.
ReplyDeletelovely, deep and dark
ReplyDeleteLife is so unpredictable.. but thats the way it is.. never let these feelings let you down..
ReplyDeleteAs they say "The only people who think there's a time limit for grief, have never lost a piece of their heart" Take all the time you need..!!