On returning.

on

So I came back.

Thinking what I felt in my heart for them, the strain of distance, was enough to let go of the separation.

Thinking that for once, I could expect their love for wanting me back.

Their monotony didn't let me down, I was yet the same outsider, separated by blood.

They never loved me. Even if they did, it wasn't even close to what I felt in my heart.

I was a mere pawn to their dart, whose presence or absence made as much difference.

To them I was nobody, when in knowing the world, I had given to them, most of my heart.

For once, it was all in vain. Worthless. I wasn't counting the worth, but whatever I was thinking was crumbing down today.

But she was the only one who understood. Even though we were never connected by blood, she acknowledged that some relations are beyond those by blood. She's the only one, my sister.

And then, I felt at home.




Comments

  1. kayla 13 June 2014 at 00:24

    very, very little compares to the bond shared between sisters. i'm happy you have her. someone once told me "blood may be thicker than water, but you can't pick your blood... you can however pick your water." i don't know if that makes much sense to you, but for me... it birthed the relationship between me and my "water family".

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  2. Optimistic Existentialist13 June 2014 at 01:48

    So glad to see a post from you!! I was just thinking of your blog the other day! You are 100% correct when you say that some relations are beyond those by blood, some relations are written in the stars. We are born unto family, but our soul finds it's true missing pieces itself...

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  3. Susan Kane13 June 2014 at 03:18

    This reminds me of myself and family, when I visited them in Illinois. Going was painful, coming back to my own home was relief.

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  4. Nesryn13 June 2014 at 07:17

    I love this! Wow, the wording is perfect, it really makes you feel something.

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  5. Anonymous13 June 2014 at 13:17

    Some bonds transcend blood, religions, cultures, countries and maybe even generations.
    Stay Blessed ^_^

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  6. Shadow13 June 2014 at 18:51

    May everyone experience such a connection...

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  7. Lubaina E.13 June 2014 at 21:29

    Sisters sure are the best!
    I love happy endings and when this blog post ended so well, I loved it.

    Oh and, I changed my blog's URL to http://lluviatic.blogspot.com/

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  8. Daria14 June 2014 at 02:30

    Hi!
    sweet blog!
    do you follow each other??
    http://defishencia.blogspot.ru/

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  9. Launna 14 June 2014 at 07:41

    I was so excited to see that you had posted, I have been so busy today I didn't have time to sit down and read any until quite late here...Yours was at the top of my list... this is amazing written, I love how you explain the bond and connection.. I had that... I hope to get it again... :)

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  10. Parmita16 June 2014 at 13:57

    Sad and sweet at the same time. I felt every word that you etched in here. Time and again there have been many instances where blood relations have failed and the one started by us comes to our aid.

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  11. Preeti S.19 June 2014 at 20:31

    They say home is not made of bricks and walls and I agree. The companionship and the acceptance of another individual makes life so much more easier and happy. My best friend makes me feel the same way and I am forever grateful to have her in my life. Others, not so much. :)

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  12. Pat Hatt22 June 2014 at 00:13

    One such person in one's life is all anyone really needs

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  13. Brian Miller22 June 2014 at 02:56

    ah there are def those relations that go well beyond blood...and you wonder if maybe they were separated from us at birth...home is def the people.....not the place..

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  14. Unknown23 June 2014 at 15:19

    it's kind of sad... to feel such rejection by your own blood.. but then again... blood means not much really... if you think about it... same blood doesn't mean same mind or thoughts or likes and dislikes... we all have a universe inside, we are all different... how can you expect to connect with everyone around you; not even the ones you grew up with might understand you... but then again, you will find other people that will... like this sister of yours... keep her close, love one another, cherish her... it's not easy to just find these soul mates, sisters, best friends, call them what you like...

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  15. Snowbrush29 June 2014 at 04:08

    I wish I had a brother or sister, whether of the same blood or not would make no difference.

    As it is, I relate to you inasmuch as I have blood siblings who don't care. One is a half brother whom I wasn't raised with, and who never wanted to know me. The other is a half sister who rejected me because I'm an atheist. Then, there's the whole sister who won't speak to me because she was unhappy with our father's will.

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  16. Unknown13 November 2014 at 23:44

    Very Enlightening..
    The people who shares your feelings,when you are going through that hell are the true blood relation's. Glad you have one!!

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